I practiced okay in the bathroom mirror mouthed it until my jaw stopped flinching okay okay okay until it sounded like a word I meant
not a lie exactly more like scaffolding you build the shape of fine and climb inside it hope the structure holds
some mornings I believe it the way I believe in parking meters and the green light at Sage and Fourth functional belief not the kind that saves you
but last night in the dark without an audience without the word I was just there breathing and not performing it
and that was closer to okay than anything I’ve rehearsed